what a lizard A.M

m think crabi N m had come to an end... m really sick N tired chatting with her... look back now... how do both of us got close before... i really dunno... maybe to her m had changed... but m pretty much sure m DIDN'T!!!!! so has she? mmmm... all these no longer important... thot m felt kinda wasted to lose a chat mate, but i remember what Gemini told m the other day... 

<<<never pls the entire world... tripping stones are always all around us... must learn to be careful N ignore them... most important take good care of ourself, family N partner... can lent ears to pals,but end of the day mustn't let these people affect us N our close ones>>>

today early in the morning, had a BIG project....lolzz... m woke SR up to catch a baby lizard... ;p sorry my dearest SR... acid in tummy is hauling m whole night... didnt have much appetite.. SR brought m to a place to have nice nice fried beehoon... opppsss... forget to take pic...anyway SR said will bring m there again, when m feeling better...

JB "luk luk"

we boiled our food here...

he is the boss... he fried + bbq if u wana...

m love this food...cant wait to eat them again....

22nd to 25th june 2009

Monday
after bringing mum doctor went lunch with princess...m had made her angry by endless complaining the stupid waitress.... m hateeeee having lunch in Chinese restaurant, esp ever since m went hk! tim sum in sg is sucks N X!
sent mum home after lunch..we went out again to buy med containers from muji, then ahead home to rest... SR tugged m to nap, thou just an hour nap, but seem m had slept quite awhile...as usual..m refused to wake up...sleeping in her arms, feeling just so great...
no choice but to wake up as having dinner with family... gal gal baked m choco cupcakes... so sweet of her huh? thank you gal gal *hug hug + kiss kiss*
m dislike this moment... SR sent home home N ahead to airport... m seem too sticky...i dunno... am i???

SR asked N told m something weird this afternoon... she asked if she had occupied too much of my time... if m need sometime...just let her know... well not very comfy when she asked m this... but on the other hand m understand what she meant.... everything is ok to m now... unless she thinks that she had spend too much with m, N has no much free time for herself N her stuffs.... m hope she can tell m... m will understand....

anyway m tried to sleep as soon as m could after SR's plane took off....dun wanna think muchhhh...anyway going jb with Taurus tomorrow...

Tuesday
while going work m had a great fall in fornt of the lift...elbow n ankles were hurt... no choice but to slowly stand up by myself... m nearly cried... m miss SR very much.....
as usual, eat liked no tomorrow N shopped till dropped in jb... m can see changes in Taurus... but just cant really describe... m hope she will change to be a better person after m.... m love the "luk luk" dinner very much... while eating that m thot of time we had spent in HK 2007! time really fliess... missing someone really bad...hate this feeling.. N time seem goes on so slowly...

Wednesday...
what an lucky day m had today...went for two tut...both also couldn't make it... Chloe is the worst gal whom i have even seen... she is totally an irresponsible gal... i don't blame her at times, all is the parents fault... leading such a smart gal to become like that... she is just like a zombie now... how can i help her???
m nap awhile....whole day wasn't that great... m felt so lonely... what princess said is true.. m just like a little kid... always wanna have full attention...
m will think of a lot thing each x when m slow down the pace... esp when m alone... m wept... at this moment, m felt bad... esp after m read thru m sunshine's blog all over again... m felt m a heartless N selfish freak... didn't mention much about Taurus, before N after broke up... sometime m wanna ring Taurus, but m don't dare...

had a short chat with SR today... m made her heart beat fast again... ;p cant wait to see my silly cas!
ooopppsss!!!she knows that m sleep late tonite... just had e indian doc med.... will try to catch some sleep...

18th to 21st june 2009

Thursday...
woke up from the wrong side of the bed again... mood was terribly lousy... a lot of maybe.... which is the main cause, m really don't know...neither wanna know...
e.g of those maybe >>> before bed SR teased m -
1st : saying will reconsider m to have m as wifey... well deeper inside, of cox m know she was teasing m,as all along we love to tease each other... but just know why all of the sudden, m take it so serious..probably m really moodyyyyyy...
2nd : knowing she not having dinner with m...but m never think of this is any big deal issue...i really don't know..

anyway lucky m have princess to keep m accompany in the evening.... 1st time of this we can really talk... talk about my rs with her... she seem to understand m a little more than before nowadays... guess without princess... m will not talk to SR so fast N hug her tight to bed... :)
m miss SR so much thru out the day, thou m cold to her since morning when woke up... while shopping alone, couldn't stop my mind thinking of her ...

Friday
Taurus was moody... mmm... m really hope she will be fine soon...
never regret of going the concert "air supply" with Taurus.. m love N enjoy it very much , thank you Taurus...
1st time 3 of us, SR, princess N m went out to play in the night...was so fun... princess bought us ice-cream, we bought curry rice back home for supper...
Taurus bought m a " Armani bracelet " N m bought a bally belt for SR " happy dad's day"...

Saturday
happily going market N having nice nice breakfast with in laws... but in the late noon, m was a little naughty, playing truant... as m hate to be rushed... thus m refused to c blue eyes boy this morning, even m was there... sorry SR! m promised will be good in future..N not to throw truant...
SR bought m dad a mobile charm "1st meeting gift" m chose it, of cox dad likes it... they 1st met for dinner...wondering hows SR feeling when she 1st had dinner with m dad... very long didn't have dinner with dad...
Dan said that she saw m at Cathay... today m fell asleep while watching the movie with SR... I'm so sorry SR!!! my understanding SR is a very nice N sweet gal... of cox she didn't blame m, as she knew m tired N yet still wanna watched movie with her ... ;p what a good wifey SR has huh?? hahaha... been sometime didn't go movie with her...up till today m still enjoy doing anything, everything with SR!

Sunday
we had a wonderful breakfast... hope that my coming Sunday will have the same breakfast again.. ;p SR got a 2 necklaces from Tiffany... m love the most is the "heart link"
having father's day dinner N coffee with SR N her family... m bought boy boy N gal gal's fav toys... all of the sudden they seem so close to m... esp gal gal... she's a cute N smart gal.... boy boy is just like a boy next door.... blur blur N innocent...
so sad to say...tonite is m last nite hug SR to bed, as she's flying tomorrow.... m kinda blue... learning to get use to it... N learn to cook mare new dishes to welcome her home... my beloved SR loves foodie too... just like m... ;p

11th to 17th june 2009

Thursday
we were bk from shanghai...overall the trip was lovely.. thank you SR! m love U more N more....
SR had really made m dayssss..no denied that m much happier n smile more these daysss.. well, of course when m was dating Taurus,we did have happy N lovely time...just that...m not her cup of tea... overall both are very nice, kind N thoughtful gals...m no longer with Taurus today, but will not forget her...

1st time in my entire life having great time in plane.... m ate walnut ice-cream N playing mahjong game with SR, after landing, we had dinner at T2 crystal jade..but when the moment m reached home,m mood wasn't that great..dunno y...m just a temperamental gal... SR never fail to surprise m...she got m an ugly doll "Mrs ko" m love it very much...N SR promised to get m a family of ugly dolls once m room is packed ;p dunno when will this lazy gal her room...

Friday
SR N m not working today...we had a busy, after seeing chinese doc, past things to dad which m bought for him from shanghai, we had turtle soup for lunch,this is the 1st time mama went out lunch with SR, guess more of these days will come ;p fetch mama home after that,,, m kinda worry for mama's leg... m so afraid one day she will like grandma couldn't walk anymore...i don't wish this day to come... may god bless mama N everyone around all the way...
we went Taka to buy birthday present for "gal gal" SR's niece, she another princess... we got her a Kipling bag, hopefully she like it. SR bought the same bag for m too N a nice nice pencil... m them muchhh :)
we had Jap dinner with SR's folks... i could tell the folks miss SR much.... after dinner we went parkway to get a OP file for boy boy, SR's nephew, thou isn't his birthday, but SR's mama wanna.... mmm...since could cheer the folk N the little boy a bit.. so why not... ;p
poor SR today suppose to be her rest day,yet still accompany m shopping....

i couldn't sleep well today... dunno why... after 2hrs of sleep, m woke up, packed some of SR's stuff to get ready her for her coming Paris trip... N also wrapped boy boy's present...

Saturday
Goshhh... we were busy like crazy... m worked for 2hrs, visit blue eye boy, Indian doc,i hope he can help m on my crazy tummy.. after that rushing to salon N home to change, before attending gal gal's birthday party, after that we dinner,follow by supermarket... we told each other that we gonna sleep till 3pm tomorrow ;p obviously we cant... we were really so tired since after both au N shanghai trips....

Sunday
we woke up before 11am, bought breakfast back, laze N nap nap till evening then went back m home for dinner... cooked simple dinner for SR...m not a great cook, poor SR gota often repeat the food that m cook... overall m love our simple N lovely SUNDAY, M hope this kind of SUNDAY will not bore my dearest SR...

Monday
met Taurus for lunch...realised that she bought X mobile for candy... m was kinda disturb by this...but on the other hand m felt relief,,, as Taurus is always so kind, stupid woman was upset,by spent some $ able cheer someone N within her reach, she doesn't mind. m very much dislike the people taking her advantage N silly of her always never wake up...

m bought 2 pairs of jeans for SR, she liked them :) m shop till rather late, but still managed to cook congee dinner for SR ;p what a home maker i am..

SR went for delivering bread for ex, as ex's gf not in town.... another kind gal whom love...
had scolded the the guard badly ( m mood wasn't that beautiful today, both Taurus N SR kindness..) server the stupid guard right, hardly see a snob guard like him nowadays... anyway, gonna move out next Oct ... i dun wish to think muchhh now...

Tuesday
agreed to go air supply concert with Taurus this Friday...very long didn't eat chicken wrap, m missed it so much...went lunch with Taurus today... SR told m that she felt jealous... ahhahha...m silly SR... when she text m this, m felt sweet, if she ignore whom m went with, m think this rs may not last long... but on the other hand.... mmmm... how to put it wordsss... these 4yrs both Taurus N m have give up most of our friends... so whenever we were free we will ring each other or ask each other out for lunch... guess same goes to SR N her ex...
m prepared salad for our dinner, m didn't have much appetite tonight...maybe m had a heavy lunch....

usually we were chat awhile before SR went shower...
1st time SR raised up her voice at m... saying.. "you don't want me to pick u after Friday concert, nor wanna Taurus sent u back to my home" N so on...m m couldn't really remember whatsoever she said... m had shut off, as was shocked, upset N hurt... knowing m pain, SR will be pain. having AV, SR AV too. knowing m upset, SR will be upset. knowing m cry, SR will also tear...
we had a great coloring time N a little chat after that... at same time she told m that she thot of exchanging lappy with her ex N asking m should she meet her for lunch or dinner on Thursday.. well.. m think m not very interested at the moment knowing she N her ex stuff, esp after 20mins of shut off... but on the other hand m shan't be selfish... as both SR N her ex are facing same problem as Taurus N m... we give up most of our friends during dating.... m not angry she meeting or helping ex, as i meet N help Taurus if i can too, but maybe just that m jealous N m not as cool as SR....

today becox of jealousy, SR raise up her voice at m N next moment keep toking about ex too... m not gonad give a damn in!!!!! :((((( m slept before her, she was on the phone for awhile i guess... she had also applied cream cream for m before she slept...

Wednesday
m woke up from the wrong side of the bed, guess bcoz m last nite unhappy incident.... ( whenever m unhappy, m will feel unwell N nausea, neither m know N wanna talk over it,,) SR didn't go work today.... we had some shopping... before m go shanghai, Taurus got m a Tiffany necklace " m used to like it much, so do now, but m just hate what m have, candy will have it, last time is bag... now is necklace.... thus today m wanna SR bring m to Tiffany to change for another design... i love the one we exchange today too...
SR bought a Ipod-shuffler, mp3 for mum, N a digit photo frame for dad... m cant wait to download nice nice princess N m pic into it.. m sure he will like it :)

went collect green bean soup from dad, guess its time to intro SR to dad :) my silly SR is ready to meet him...

SR still jealous over Taurus incident, she thinks it had dragged too long... but m never N agree to think in such way, not only about Taurus N m, as well as she N Jan... today m have problem, or have not had lunch or dinner, m sure Taurus will help... same goes to Jan, SR will not reject her >>>>> am i sounded too defensive??? m really not to sure, but these are just m thots regarding about four of us... of coz m happy to know that SR is jealous as m had mention on earlier day...

m would try to see Taurus lesser, just like she N Jan... if today Mary allow her to meet SR, will they meet as often as Taurus N m ? well... all these not up to m to think...neither m will think... it will only cause our rs unhealthy....but of coz m will not stop SR from calling or meeting Jan, neither will m stop contacting Taurus... all these are under mutual trust...
I LOVE MY SILLY CAS! KISSSSS KISSSS n HUGGGG HUGGGG

Shanghai Trip

5 june to 11 june 2009

First time family of five travelled together... feeling excited, but on the other hand soooo heavyyyy... maybe m had worried to muchhh...dunoo why kept having some disturb feeling...

Day 1 ( rainy day)

Rain seem follow wherever we go... when we were in gold coast, weather was bad..

Everyone was hungry, esp mama, she didn't eat any since morning... SR ordered take-away... food wasn't great... after a short rest, we went to a mall for dinner... silly of m mistaken SR, and showed her black face... as m felt that something seem in her mind...m couldn't read her... feeling uncomfy, but actually SR was worrying that m leg (m sprained m toufu leg, bit swollen..) she didn't wanna m over walked N strained m leg...

*m sorry SR, still thot  that our honeymoon period is fading day by day...

*SR is a thot gal, esp towards folks... which i like it N basic manner which m partner needs to have..

Another fruitful trip ;p bought shoes, clothes, nice nice umbrella and my beloved LV "last piece in shanghai" SG N AU discontinue.. a little more expensive than SG, but m love it, find high N low from country to country, finally princess FOUND IT, SR bought m! thank you, Sweeties! m seem lucky these days... m get, what m wanna ;p but of coz, m will not  that greedy whom wanna the sun nor moon from the sky... lolx

overall m would its a great trip, shopping and foodies were great, but not the air, kinda polluted! everyone enjoyed the dinners very much... never regret going this trip! :) mum enjoyed the most m guessed, minus her painful knee...

one of SR's song...

I will follow you
Follow you wherever you may go
There isn't an ocean too deep
A mountain so high it can keep me away
I must follow you
Ever since you touched my hand I know
The near you I always must be
And nothing can keep you from me
You are my destiny
I love you, I love you, I love you
And where you go I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow
You'll always be my true love, my true love, my true love
From now until forever, forever, forever
I will follow you
Follow you wherever you may go
There isn't an ocean too deep
A mountain so high it can keep
Keep me away, away from my love
I love you, I love you, I love you
And where you go I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow
You'll always be my true love, my true love, my true love
From now until forever, forever, forever
I will follow you
Follow you wherever you may go
There isn't an ocean too deep
A mountain so high it can keep
keep me away, away from my love
And where you go I'll follow