honey bun is on business trip since yesterday again... little upset... gonna miss her 3 nights...
26 Aug 2009
had chat with Taurus lately.. m felt upset after the chat... she became more N more enclose herself after broke off with J. maybe partly also m... these few days m been thinking several questions... how should m put into words... no result issue shall skip... <<<benediction is a form of love...>>> m really hope Taurus able to stand up soon... m hate to see her in such a stage...
27 Aug 2009
suddenly some disturbing thots race past my mind... led m to read what i had written N write out m feelings... m felt that Taurus is a mirror of m... yes? no? m dunno, neither wanna know.... m in vexed now, don't wanna talk anything deeper....
difference between Taurus N m : she likes to ask something which she cant handle and m NEVER WANNA KNOW ANYTHING WHICH M CANT HANDLE...
both similarity : both run away from REALITY WHEN WE COULDN'T HANDLE... DUNNO EVER SINCE WHEN M BECOME A HERMIT CRAB...
after chatting with Gemini, she suggested m should be more independent... m ignored her at the beginning... but hours later, m agreed, m also realise that m had no goal in life now... what if one day " we are not together...?" m dunno if m will fall greatly.... m really dunno if m able to stand up again... maybe m will... yesss m will... life goes on when whoever is gone... just a matter of time to heal the wound...
SR is back tomorrow... m happy? m dunno... just know that m miss her!
28 Aug 2009
m feeling unwell today, couldn't even complete 4 hours of job... m spoke to Taurus before picking SR... she knew m was grouchy... be it happy or unhappy, every single emotion is hang on m face... conclusion : both Taurus N SR think that m jealous over "SR's ex" while on my way to pick her, m heart feeling so heavy... neither m know how to describe this feeling.
m hugged her tightly when i saw her! whatsoever nonsense is no longer important, nor wanna think about it, just wanna continue m journey her as long as m can...m will not give up this relationship because of whoever...
Weekends
had a solid rest N so much FUN during these two days, beside the rash med which caused m unable to go work on Sunday... we had BBQ dinner, nini N SR BBQ, m eat ;p this was my 2nd time eating WAGYU BEEF N my 1st time eating BABY LAMB! M MISS THE TEXTURE OF THOSE MEATS ;p
