12th - 14th aug

Sunday
m just back from manila not long...didn't blog daily nowadays...neither all things m can remember... beside the food poisoning, everything in manila was great... m believe if Taurus read today blog she will come out with all "stupid words" which will upset m...to her its nothing,she didn't mean anything, but to m may sounded "uncomfy", maybe m a gal whom has no sense of humor... lousy SUNDAY HAPPENING!

It happened just because of her GF was around n TAURUS wanna my wii controller, thot that piece of controller wasn't mine, but when Taurus bought m wii, she bought m THE WHOLE SET, she knew everything m wanna WHOLE FULL SET! since she so damn rich can buy a brand new wii, simply don't understand why cant she buy another controller... thou i did ever mention, she may have those game which m not playing back... but isn't when u wanna go people home to take things, N just go at once! also must see if people free to entertain u...no?? m felt Taurus doesn't know how to respect m.this is Taurus, always wanna make m go INSANE, then she will realise N understand what m wanna N how m feel.... " that part of the reason, we ENDED! " TODAY WAS THE UGLIEST DAY out of these 4 years we "chat" is not that she had tolerated m for 4years N today was her 1st day blew up... its BECAUSE HER GF WAS THERE, HER MIND N HEART HAD BEEN BEWITCHED BY BITCHHHHH.....
"excuse my wording, then again this is m blog, m can write anything if m wana..."
this was also SR 1st see m cried so bitterly N super UPSET... she mus be heart aching...
*no worry, SR, m a strong gal, will never give up thing easily N will not let other to bully myself again... :)

Monday
a peaceful morning... till noon packed some Taurus's stuff... early evening she came to collect... this time m felt her face so hateful... at time moment, no one has good words out from mouth, esp m! i didn't wana bother she meant well or try to make her feel better... m really sick of think 4 her thots N feeling... time to be devil now... lolz...
m cried bitterly after returning her some of the stuff... partly because m hate myself 4 been so stupiddddd.... m don't know what could m actually to do make her N myself happier after the rs...

m heart was terribly HURT by Taurus these days after the rs... there were several reasons for m to reject her of coming over yesterday was afraid she mess up my room,m having runny nose again, my room is dirty, afraid her skin may worsen " she need a very clean environment ", MAINLY WAS SHE SPOKE SHITTY TO M WHILE HER GF WAS AROUND, SO WHY SHOULD M GAVE INNNNN...

whatever it is, its time to come to an ended... moreover both of us had found our the other half... taking care of Taurus job has come to an end... she has someone to take care now, need not m to worry anymore... overall tarus is a very kind person, but i think she really need to built up more of confident, open herself to people... or maybe know more friends... she will always in my mind...
its time 4 m to move on N do something else... what can m do? haha...m know if princess read this sure scold m... as she hate m having no direction...always wanna others to plan things for m to move on... mmm... but this is just m, esp these days... thanks god that m have SR at m side... SR motivates m to move on... thou life is never perfect, BUT LIFE CAN ALWAYS BE WONDERFUL...

Tuesday
don't why maybe m woke up from the wrong side of the bed... or m still brood over Taurus's incident... mmm...m need sometime to digest... come to this...m not a fexi person.... but something really surprise m, Taurus found m blogging... she read! she told m that she was glad that m happily in love with my gf now...
anyway m went crazy shopping today again... bought SR's birthday present, thou her birthday is on Sep... her 1st birthday present from m... she looked really cool with that bag on :) theres still more surprises coming up for her.... shhhh... cant review much not... its a surprise :)
Tonite SR asked m about my next destination in mind, she will bring m go... mmm... i will follow her, follow wherever she wana bring m to... m love towards SR is deeper as days past...