depression back?

m had a very bad day yest.... even Capri also can feel my depression is back, mmmm.... is it back again??? dunno...really dunno... just know that lately so much things had happened... maybe all these are karma... lolzzz... i remember..two people ever mention "karma" to m before... they asked m do i believe... N maybe these are my... well maybe.. maybe not... i do believe.. but if what i had done these years, i deserve this shit... i think i should have done more... since m facing such punishment now... m really too tired of thinking any single shit now... so breathless... feeling now is dun wanna do anything, just wanna sleep... but something for sure, m wont smile or do anything for seek of doing esp towards SR and Capri... of course as well as my family N pals... each of my smile, laughter, frown, teardrop, love, care N dote for guys are real... please do not doubt m! m was so terribly hurt after reading those "classic" text from those whom always claim they dote, love, yang m... m really hate this feeling...

we blocked each other since yesterday... Crabi wanna it! N so her wish is granted! guess this the max m can do for her, m cant take her temperamental N big around the bush nonsense anymore... before she goes haywire, m will go crazy, if carry on chatting... maybe she also similar in some ways as m, wanna many attentions, care N love... but there are diff btw us too..... m voice up N fight for things which i wanna "anyway since young, i dun have to voice or fight for things i wana, N i will still have it....i really wana thank my beloved mama, she really knows m inside out, her love, care, dotes N attention towards m is unlimted, nor will change..." at least i tried, so if outcome doesn't turn what m wanna... m wanna live m life with no REGRET...

alright, dun talk abut unhappy stuff... m bought Taurus X lunch yesterday... hahaha... haiz forget to take pic of those nice nice foodie... we had shark fin, tim sum, scallop fried rice, peking duck "my SR's fav too, also mine"

actually so much things in mind wanna tell SR, but when m see her, everything seem gone... Luckily m have Capri N SR around these days... m worry most is Capri's health... she seem facing much invisible stress in work lately, m afraid this will worsen her health condition... m really hope she go doc ASAP....